Current mood:

drained

soz if this entry is a bit EMO
ok, so im 15 now... should be cool goin out wiv ma m8s n gettin pissed behind ma mums back - but no, i spend most of the time indoors feelin sorry 4 maself.

firstly, school is worse thn ever, coz im in the best sets in my year group im expected to be perfect in all pieces of course-work i do, well im sorry but its harder thn it frikkin looks and takes longer the the teachers say it should - so the bastard teachers should get of my frikkin back!!!!!! we aint all brain of the pissing year.
secondly, i thaught best friends were meant to be able 2 talk to each other if they had a problem, but apparntly if two people feel left out of the group and they confront the person making them feel this way, it gives that person the right to have a stress and then completly ignor these two people leaving them completly on the own and really upset for not doin anything wrong. ok, yes i am tlkn about me and ma friend, but we really feel left out and were really pissed of because this other one isnt lisnin 2 us an puttin words in our mouths, i tried to talk to her on the phone and i thort it was all sorted out but aparently not because 2 day she came in and was fine on the way to school until anouther friend was there and she decided to bring it all upp, and then put me and ma other m8 down tryin 2 say wre attention seekers. NOT TRUE
thirdly, i found out about sumthing reacently wich i didnt mean to do, but i feel like im a dick for not knowin and its really gettin me down and ive got loads of stuff goin on in ma head about it, so yeh, maybe i need a bit of extra TLC at the mo but i really wouldnt call it attention seeking. also there is only two people in the world i can trust enough to tell, wich is my sister and my friend danny, (and also sarah but i knwo she wouldnt understand xxx) and considering that im supposed to be friends with quite a few other people i think its pretty crap that no1 can be botherd or even try to be understanding enough to listen without bitching behind my back, spreading it round or gettin fed up with me. WICH IS PISSING ANOYING. however, Alice did say sumthing that really helped the other day wich i can think of wenever i ask what it would have been like.

on a happier note i did have a brilliant birthday and thank you to eveyone for the prezzies, especially Caths hoola hoop :o) and katie n alices wellies :oD

love ellie x